One thing I want you to know about me {and many that have walked a similar path} is that my biggest fear came true. 

My fear of failure. 

The very thing I spent nearly all my time and energy avoiding, actually happened.    

And it was the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me!

Yes, it was scary at times, painful and excruciating. Absolutely, it tore me to shreds and took me years to build myself back. 

But I was ok. I survived.  

And something changed for good - a whole new universe of what’s possible opened up because my biggest fear was no longer.

Through this process I had to drop every mask I hid behind and every version of what I had thought was success. I found myself sitting in a big black void of nothingness and it was kinda terrifying. 

I wish I knew it at the time but I was in the goo and what I mean by that is: I was a caterpillar changing form, I had no idea of the magnificence I was growing into, I thought was scared of failure, not being good enough and letting people down, but behind all of that I was scared of my own power and brightness, of who I was becoming because it challenged everything I knew. Marianne Williamson’s classic words rang more true than ever:

“Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us” 

Who I was becoming challenged my world view, and had the potential to severe me from all the people I loved and the activities I enjoyed. I didn’t know who I was becoming, and this was happening at a frightening speed. But my metamorphism was an inevitable, beautiful process and I wouldn’t change who I am for the world today.